I have been a member of the gay community for a little over two years now, and the entire community is still a bitch to navigate. I feel like I am still out of my depth and over my head. Sure I have confidence now in realizing what guys want from me and what this looks like, but the past two years have and continue to be very anxiety producing. This period of feeling lost and overwhelmed is what I have coined being a "baby gay."
I am not entirely certain that I coined this term, but I googled it and nothing else came up, so I am taking some of the credit (please ignore urban dictionary).
I do not mean to say that a baby gay is a young gay, but more an inexperienced one. Someone who has recently come out of the proverbial closet. I mean I was recently sleeping with a 20 year old who has been messing around with guys since he was 16, so technically I am more of a baby gay than he is.
When I first decided to start dating men I was overwhelmed and did not have anyone to lean on or ask for advice. I grew up in a very conservative Christian household where being gay was a one way ticket to hell, and it wasn't a first class ticket either. In the beginning things were confusing, scary, and I was a little naïve, ok a lot naive. I had no idea how "gay" sex was performed or how to prepare my body, and I was definitely under-informed about the dangers of having unprotected sex.
I wanted to start this blog to help out other baby gays that are "lost in translation," help curious straight people understand this complex world, and give established gays some laughs along the way. The first two years of my gay life have been a roller coaster of emotion and I have learned so much about myself and the world along the way that I feel compelled to share some of my most priceless moments. I hope that you all enjoy my adventures as a baby gay.
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